losing ones best friend

how does it feel to lose a friend ...

and

how does it feel to lose your best friend ...

 

i am not sure cos i havent still gathered myself together

am still reeling under the shock ...

 

the nuclear bomb just hit me a few moments and i have no idea how to react .. to myself ..

how to feel. what to think.

 

i dont even know what happened and why and how ...

maybe it was happening for long and i was unaware of it ..

 

my mind is right now a complete mess .. like a site devastated by a N-bomb ..

infact .. not a mess .. its a flat ground with nothing but a HUGE gaping HOLE in the heart ...

 

its like the person who is hit by a N-Bomb and is wondering "what just happened" ...

 

 

P.S. -- If you are a friend and you are reading about it, please dont talk to me about it. I cant. talk.