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Today is 16th Sept. Let me tell you about yet another special person in my Life. Payal ; my batch mate and the Shortest sweetest kid member in our G7. I am a pretty cool person. I dont get angry. I dont take tension of any damn thing. I dont worry much about things. But yes, I do get iritated at times. on the whole, a very cool person who can be found usually in a very optimistic mood. The past few weeks I noticed some change in me. I was going a bit low on tolerance. And that too only when it came to MastishK. Things were happening around me which were not exactly agreeable to me. I was unhappy. I was slightly disturbed. I realised that I was LOUD most of the times. I was in a state of dissapointment most of the times. With exams on coming Monday, less than a week left, pressures were mounting on all. I was woried about MastishK. I never realised but MastishK had become my life in the past 3 months. I was with MastishK 24X7 ... literally. Yesterday, I and Payal were ...

Expectations : Root of All Problems Now I know the source of all my problems ... hurray .... Its ME !! Finally the culprit ... the pain in my neck , the tumour, the thorn pricking my soul .. is identified !! What a relief !!! I cannot put it in words how it feels when you find the culprit ... who is causing the problems in your life ..! Now, at least you can blame somebody for all the problems in your life ... Its a big relief !! In my case, I , ME , Myself turned out to be the culprit. Its 'me' who is literally 'creating' all my problems ! Yes ... I am the source, the creator, the genesis of my problems . Probing a bit further ... I found that its not entirely 'my' fault ... but my 'expectations' which are actually to be blamed .... Moral of the story ..... 'My Expectaions are the Root Cause of All My problems' In my last blog, i wrote abt my quest with my simultaneously present chaotic mix of emotions and feelings And no ...

I am confused !! Yes ... i m confused . Confused b'coz in the past few days / weeks i have experienced a whole range of mixed feelings ... and the trouble is that all the emotions are present simultaneously . Its not that i was happy for some time and then sad for some and then bored for yet another period ... It was more like i was happy , sad , hurt , excited , frustrated , bored , depressed , motivated , fearful etc ... all at the same time. All these emotions were simultaneously present within me. They surfaced either alone or several simultaneously at different times of the day in different contexts with different triggers. Infact, the whole August of 2004 has been the most emotionally charged month for me in the last Silver jubilee years ... (i celebrated my silver jubilee BDay last Nov.). The range of emotions that have affected me in the last month and the way they have affected me ... are mind boggling (for me at least ... )... and the biggest trouble is...

hi friendzz .... I have been absent from the blog circuit for quite a while ... and the reason i already mentioned in my last blog ... MastishK ,,, Its keeping me very busy .... i am working most of my time ... no time wasting .. hardly any sleep ... thinking all the time ... my MastishK is working 24 X 7 on Mastishk .... The last 10 days have been very very hectic ... the junior teams were busy and so i and nikhil were left with very few 'technical' hands to work on the website. We had to launch the second phase of MastishK .. open up the registrations and launch the Informalzz section along with India's First ever B School Comic character "Arbit Choudhury" ! I hardly slept ... attending the minimum reqd lectures and coming back to my terminal and designing pages ... awake till 5 or 6 am in the morning and then going to sleep for 2/3 hours .... In the past few days ... one thing i realised was that i was suddenly finding an enormous amount of en...